HoldOnPumpkin: Nursing Takes Two

babypeapod:

anothermommy:

I would like to officially start the BLAME the BABY campaign.

On behalf of all nursing mothers who experienced overwhelming difficulties with breastfeeding…

All nursing mothers who did everything ‘right’ (according to the ‘rules’ of breastfeeding established by the mothers of self righteous…

this!

I still have issues admitting that it is my daughter’s small palate and immature coordination that are causing me problems. I always say “I have problems latching” even though the LCs, midwives and paediatricians reassure me I am good at latching, she just isn’t capable of it yet.

It is hard to admit my daughter, who is absolutely perfect, may not be perfect at breastfeeding. Instead I grit my teeth through the pain of feeding her, cry through supplementing and spent the time in between alternating alternating hot and cold compresses on my sore boobs, all while listening to people who have never had problems (or even breastfed!) or seen us try, tell me it is just painful because I haven’t learned how to latch properly yet :/

I need to focus on the fact that I have a healthy baby and how lucky I am that (1) I live in a time where it is possible for me to supplement her with food that has tons of nutrients for her body and brain and (2) I need to be the perfect mother for HER, not the perfect mother image I have in my mind or the perfect mother that emails me the LLL or KellyMom (yes we’ve tried all that) when I cry about our difficulties to them.

// Baby baby steps//

I had every intention of going to the breastfeeding group today, but it seems this little one is hitting her 4 week growth spurt right on time and I am still in my pajamas at noon.

It’s the thought that counts, right? At least I was able to take her to the grocery store (all by myself!) yesterday.

Happy 1 month baby!

Happy 1 month baby!

Pram yesterday and boba wrap today- having my mom here to help has made me a big more adventurous. we’ve been to the osteopath, lunch at the pub, afternoon tea, birth registrar, the V&A, out for coffee and shopping all this week. Being out in the fresh air has done wonders for my mental state.

 Hopefully this confidence will stay on after she leaves on Sunday. I am nervous how I will cope without her help next week though. Babies as infinitely easier with 2 full time caretakers. Trying to convince my husband to quit his job and be a stay at home dad now.

Pram yesterday and boba wrap today- having my mom here to help has made me a big more adventurous. we’ve been to the osteopath, lunch at the pub, afternoon tea, birth registrar, the V&A, out for coffee and shopping all this week. Being out in the fresh air has done wonders for my mental state.

Hopefully this confidence will stay on after she leaves on Sunday. I am nervous how I will cope without her help next week though. Babies as infinitely easier with 2 full time caretakers. Trying to convince my husband to quit his job and be a stay at home dad now.

Help! I am trapped under 9 1/2 lbs of gassy baby. 

Though after 6 hours of her being awake and fussy- I guess I’ll take it!

Help! I am trapped under 9 1/2 lbs of gassy baby.

Though after 6 hours of her being awake and fussy- I guess I’ll take it!

// Success!//

My little girl sucked on the pacifier for 5 whole minutes before going to sleep.

I know it goes against the lactation consultants recommendation, but until she comes over at 1am to have my baby comfort nurse a layer of skin off her bruised nipple- I’ll stick with the lazy mummy dummy.

// Good thing we thought we were having a big baby//

She is officially out of newborn onesies that fit. Just took them out of her drawer 14 hours shy of her being 3 weeks old.

0-3 all the way from now on!

I’ve posted this before- but

Happy Mother’s Day everyone, especially to those who are celebrating their first this year!

Living cells from every baby you have ever carried continue to live inside the mother long after birth or a loss.

Wherever your child goes on their path through life, remember that they literally, scientifically, measurably reside in your heart forever.

Ok- so the voracious feeder 7:40-9:20 and now still hungry girl is back. But this was kind of adorable while it lasted.

Ok- so the voracious feeder 7:40-9:20 and now still hungry girl is back. But this was kind of adorable while it lasted.

// wait, what?//

this baby, I’ll tell you.

fed her for an hour at 1pm. Nipple started shutting down so I topped up with a bottle supplement as midwife suggested. She then drank 2.5oz on top of the breast milk.

So this girl who has been eating every 45 min- 1hr up until 2 days ago has been asleep since 3.

Is this for real? My boobs haven’t secretly started dispensing NyQuil, right?

I mean I ate a meal, did the dishes, peed twice, sent out cards, and just had some quiet time. I feel almost functional.

I am putting this here because I am sure this is the only time this will happen in the next 3 months.

A BRITISH/AMERICAN
BABY-TO-BE
DUE IN APRIL 2013